Dancing by Nanni (tiamats_child@yahoo.com)


Hope dances, her feet striking the ice floor, the ice shattering and slashing into skin, drawing lines and flowing pools of living red on the ground. She wishes she could stop to rest, sit down and breathe, in and out, until air comes steadily, and her chest unbinds itself, no longer tight and closed. But she has Del to carry, clinging close to her neck, she has to keep her sister safe, and to keep her safe she has to keep dancing. She can’t stop, because if she stops than something terrible will happen and Del will be hurt. And Hope can’t let Del get hurt because Del is the baby and her sister and Hope has be the one who’s all grown up and that means she must keep dancing. She has to has to has to has to...

Maybe there’s a way out, but all there is now is the dancing, and trying to keep her balance on the blood slicked floor, and here has to be a way out and she’ll find it, but now she needs to keep Del from harm as best she can, which isn’t very well, but she’s trying- And then a soft voice threads into the old dream, Hope, wake up, Rosie will be very annoyed with me if I let you miss breakfast. And Hope wakes, and remembers, and smiles at Frodo, and her feet are whole, and she can hear Del scolding Sammie somehow down the hall, and everything is all right, even if her shoulders do ache from a late night writing and a unfortunate way of cuddling into the pillows.

Of course. She’s safe. She only needs to dance when she wants to. So she slips out of bed and darts down the hall, hurrying to make sure that she gets to her pancakes before Del steals all of the syrup again. And while everyone talks around her, a dozen conversations weaving in close to her skin, she wonders how she ever managed to forget all this laughter.

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Pretty Good Year