Heavier Than Heaven
- is a book about Kurt. In this post, from the hole.com message boards, Courtney lays some very dark emotions bare as she reveals what it is that keeps her going: Frances, and her vow to make a musician's union that offers health care.


ill just give it for free
A long post by Courtney Love (orignally at hole.com, copied here in its entirety) it's a must-read for anyone interested in Kurt Cobain.


uhh yes
- Courtney's response to the thread on the Hole.com messageboard 'ever caught yrself ROMANTICISING clove+kurt?'


"Without a doubt, he was the love of her life. What I found amazing is that everything Courtney is, Kurt wasn't. And Kurt was everything Courtney wanted to be, and he didn't want to be it. He was an innocent and Courtney is of the world. Courtney sees it. Courtney adjusted. Courtney is not afraid of it."
- Premiere, 1997


Reading of the note Courtney read out sections of Kurt's suicide note onto a tape that was played at a public memorial. This is a transcript of her amazingly brave, terribly sad reading.


Million Mom March Speech, 2000:
"My name is Courtney Love and six years ago, on April 7, my husband Kurt Cobain shot himself to death. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary emotion. If you've ever lived with somebody with depression you know how they suffer, but you should also know that there is help, depression is treatable. It's one of the greatest tragedies on earth that of the 32,000 gun deaths every year in America, 17,000 are those who kill themselves. Over 1200 kids, three children a day, die from self inflicted gun wounds. Three children will shoot themselves in this country before the sun goes down. In a moment of desperation and chaos life is ended, because a gun was handy and near and probably unregistered. There are those who say, oh please, have a gun for protection. But I know better. Suicide is five times more likely in a house with a gun than in a house without one. Ask any Mother who finds a child's body in the bedroom, or who hears a shot in the basement and rushes down to see their daughter lying on the floor, if guns are really good protection. Ask a child like my little girl, Frances, who will never have her father hold her hand as she walks to school, or teach her to play guitar, ask her if it's good protection. I try to explain to my child that her Father is dead, and that hundreds of other children's Fathers are dead because we have no way of protecting depressed people from their darkest moment. Because we have nihilistic, barbaric gun laws in this country. And that's why I'm here. If we registered guns, if we licensed gun owners, if we checked for criminal records and for mental illness, then we will make it harder for people to buy guns, and then we will save countless lives. I know if Kurt could see his daughter today, he'd be so glad that he was alive. He'd be so glad to be here walking in the Lincoln Memorial or buying her an ice cream. I miss my friend. My daughter misses her Father. Thousands and thousands of children felt that his choice was an option for them. An option made so easy. He was a really great poet and a beautiful songwriter, but he also became a symbol for a tragic death. A tragic muse of death by gun shot wound that he never, ever, ever would have wanted to be. Here's how he died: An acquaintance of my husbands with a long criminal record and a record of mental illness, walked into a pawn shop. It took him about five minutes to purchase a shot gun. He handed it to Kurt on April 6 and on April 7 he was found dead. That's how easy it is. Thank you."


Around Love's neck is a large diamond-speckled antique heart locket. The back is made of glass, revealing a lock of fine, pale blond hair. Whose? "I don't know," Love lies. (Premiere)


It's better to burn out then fade away
-excerpt from Kurt's suicide note.

It's better to rise then fade away
- lyrics from reasons to be beautiful from Hole's album Celebrity Skin.

"The one man that I loved so much... He was crushed for his love for me. They killed him because he loved me." She was finally talking about Kurt.
- Rolling Stone, 1998 (thanks to ~*renee*~)

There are many Hole lyrics that could be interpreted as being somehow related to Kurt. There's a Nirvana song called 'Old Age' that was recorded by Hole with lyrical changes that included the line 'Rest in peace and me in pieces'. Other famous lyric alterations are 'I want him.. he's all gone', and 'The girl you know, the one who should have died'. How much of the album Celebrity Skin is about Courtney's marriage and how much is about the huge triumph and beauty of her life afterwards is something that can only be left unknown. Her ability to rise and be polished, rather then worn down, by the tragedy is a testament to her 'pretty power', which there is no power like in the world.


After Cobain's suicide, Love spent the next six months in "a drug-induced fog," O'Connor [Kurt's mother] says. "She wasn't holding it together. And when she came out of that she was desperate. She didn't know which direction to go in for comfort. She was running off to New York to the Dalai Lama, looking for relief from the pain. And sometimes the only relief is time."





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